Damn I wish I wasn’t working all this weekend… I’d totally be trecking around tramlines. 😩
Ugh woke up this morning stumbling around, struggling to get ready. I leave the house and walk to the bus stop like some kind of real world zombie whilst thinking what the hell is wrong today?
Check my sugars and I’m hypo. And I probably have been for a while. Time to break out the dextrose tablets.
At least I’m not high I suppose.
The pieces of your heart
And let me peer inside
Let me in
Where only your thoughts have been
Let me occupy your mind
As you do mine
You have lost
Too much love
To fear, doubt and distrust
Its not enough
You just threw away the key
To your heart
You don’t get burned
'Cause nothing gets through
It makes it easier
Easier on you
But that much more difficult for me
To make you see
Love ain’t fair
So there you are
Your heart’s a mess
You won’t admit to it
It makes no sense
But I’m desperate to connect
And you, you can’t live like this
Love ain’t safe
You won’t get hurt if you stay chaste
So you can wait
But I don’t wanna waste my love
This is how it’s always been: we express to each other through music. I am yours… please just give me some time to figure it out on my own.
I’m tired of over thinking things that I have no power over to change.
And I don’t see why a lad should get a high five over something a girl in the same situation is shamed for.
Yes we do dumb shit, but as long as lessons are learned I see no problems.
……. people have an unhealthy obsession with rumours.
I woke up from a dream this morning, and it was one of those that play in your mind:
I dreamt that I was trying to get away from this place and someone I knew had unexpectedly come to help me. One day as we passed each other in a rush S gave me a small glass, I took it back to where I was staying and puzzled over its meaning. Until a mutual friend told me S had drunk from this glass on his 30th birthday dreaming of someone like me, and wanted me to be there to share a drink on his 40th. Now, because S was not a sentimental person I was overjoyed that he had been so thoughtful, and excited for what could mean.
Maybe this is just my mind telling me its tired of being single. Its left me with an odd longing anyway.
Completed the DAFNE programme yesterday, and it was so helpful I don’t know why I resisted going on it for so long.
I tend to get frustrated when I can’t could carbs, or don’t know why my blood glucose is behaving the way it does… but I feel like now have the confidence and knowledge to figure these things out.